The battle in my head

There is constantly multiple battles in my head.

They run through out my mind on a daily basis.

Even if I conquer one, three more develop. 

 They range from some of the simplest items of life 

to some of hardest things that life has to throw at you. 

Do I truly forgive...........

Stop thinking about that.......

Where do I want to put this picture at.....

What color do I paint the down stairs.....

What color do I want my room....

Do I want to put pavers on that side of the tree and do this or that with the right side....

What do I teach the cheer girls today....

Is that person going to really show up today.....

Am I a good mom......

AND SO FORTH

Why do these run over me everyday. 

On top of trying to sort through all of that I have all my motherly, wifely, housely duties, some where in through all of it I try to take care of myself. Battling with losing this baby weight just puts my esteem down even more. I still don't feel pretty enough in my skin. It hardens my daily path of my many activities/ duties.

When does my list start to deplete instead of piling it on. When does myself worth and esteem start going back up, not even back up but start leveling out. It just seems to be a slow downward spiral. When it comes to my boys I have no douts but in every other aspect of my life, I have no certainties.

 http://morninghollow.blogg.se/2009/december/

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"I'm here but I'm in my head"