A SAD NOTE

It's another sad day for MVHS students

As I sit here in bed tonight, watching the news, I learn of another MVHS car crash

Just a few weeks ago, in Fishers Landing there was a wreck due to a DRUNK DRIVER

These 4 kids were out on a double date and for some reason they were out around like 2:30 or 3:30 in the morning, and these kids decided to let a girl drive them after drinking.

Today, not sure all details, but at 15 year old boy was possibly driving a truck when he was killed. One thing for sure was that he didn't have a seat belt on.

I feel for his family, where ever they are tonight grieving their loss.

DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE LOOK OVER THE BOYS

 FAMILY TONIGHT AS WELL OVER THE FAMILIES OF THE OTHER BOYS WHO WERE IN THE TRUCK WITH THIER FRIEND IN HIS FINAL MOMENTS OF HIS LIFE. PLEASE COMFORT THEM WITH ALL THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF THIER SON/FRIEND. THERE WILL BE A LOST FELT OVER THE SCHOOL IN DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS AND YEARS TO COME FOR THE LOST OF THE BOY. PLEASE COMFORT THOSE STUDENTS OF MVHS AND GIVE THE STAFF STRENGTH TO HELP THOSE STUDENTS AND THIER FAMILIES. 

HALLOWEEN IS ON IT'S WAY!!!!!

I'm so excited to night.

I went on little shopping trip today, this morning to the mall with my cousin.

So glad he had nothing to do, lol.

Got a few things I needed and hit the panty raid sale at VS. SCORE!

Later I went to my dad's.

Talking with my stepmom, she reminded me that I needed to go to Joann's as well.

So off we went, back to the mall for her and Joann's for us.

I didn't find the pattern that I needed but I did figure out how to make one to use.

I also didn't find the material I was looking for and just as I gave up and started to walk away

THERE IT WAS!

Not what I wanted but better.

SCORE! DOUBLE TIME!

Cant' wait to get started now. 

The battle in my head

There is constantly multiple battles in my head.

They run through out my mind on a daily basis.

Even if I conquer one, three more develop. 

 They range from some of the simplest items of life 

to some of hardest things that life has to throw at you. 

Do I truly forgive...........

Stop thinking about that.......

Where do I want to put this picture at.....

What color do I paint the down stairs.....

What color do I want my room....

Do I want to put pavers on that side of the tree and do this or that with the right side....

What do I teach the cheer girls today....

Is that person going to really show up today.....

Am I a good mom......

AND SO FORTH

Why do these run over me everyday. 

On top of trying to sort through all of that I have all my motherly, wifely, housely duties, some where in through all of it I try to take care of myself. Battling with losing this baby weight just puts my esteem down even more. I still don't feel pretty enough in my skin. It hardens my daily path of my many activities/ duties.

When does my list start to deplete instead of piling it on. When does myself worth and esteem start going back up, not even back up but start leveling out. It just seems to be a slow downward spiral. When it comes to my boys I have no douts but in every other aspect of my life, I have no certainties.

 http://morninghollow.blogg.se/2009/december/

heart

"I'm here but I'm in my head"

Family

Yesterday was alot of fun. We had our 4th annual Marsden reunion out at Lewis Ville Park. Every summer for the last 49 1/2 years, my grandmother's family reunion has been out there, and about 5 years ago my aunt's and father decided to start one for my grandparents. We lost my grandmother back in 2003 so it's nice that they started it up so that we can all celebrate our parents/grandparents love and marriage. Plus it's another way to hold on to her for me and it helps to cope with my grandfathers new marriage. Don't get me wrong, I like his new wife and think she a very nice woman. And I'm very happy that she makes my grandfather happy.

But back to the subject. Alot of my cousin's were not able to come which made it smaller then normal but there were still plenty of us there to have a great time. Friday night, my sister in law and I went to the dollar store to buy some candy because I thought it would be fun to make a grab box to the kidos. We started wondering through the store to see if we could find anything else that might be fun. We found ourselves down the craft aisle and found some foam stickers and picture frames. Sweet deal, for 5 bucks we got dinos, various auto motives, and girlie accessories. It was a big hit, all the kids sat down and made one.

Later my cousin, Raya, My brother Matt and his wife, and myself took the kids down to the park to play. Surprisingly, the park keepers really fixed the park up. Took all the old toys and swings out, put all new stuff in and paved the rock paths. We, adults,  started talking about how the marry go round ( I think is the name of the turny thing) was gone and the changed up the swings and they we started talking laughing thinking back to my brothers experience the year before.  My brother Matt and Raya's brothers Robby and Jeremy were trying to make the thing go as fast as they could. One of the kids started to get scared and wanted off, so my brother thought he would just grab on to the bar and slow it down. Well...he grabbed on but it didn't slow it down but he did make us all laugh very hard. When Matt grabbed on to the bar it took him with; he went flying, did like a double back roll and stopped just as he got to the A frame bar of the swings. 

After the reunion, we all hung out at my dad's house. When that ten minute rain storm hit that was so cool to watch we all gathered around the back door and watched it. Then it hit me that we have a bunch of stuff that was unpacked from the car just sitting on the porch. I went running and started moving the stuff in side as fast as possible, but the funny part was that my cousin came running out the door remembering all of his house windows were open luckily his roommate was home and closed them before he got there. 

Saturday and Sunday

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From the roof of the add on

The hubs stayed at his grandma's house last night so that way he didn't just have to turn back around this morning and drive back over there. So, it was just the boys and me all day yesterday and today. Yesterday I got the back of the house power washed, as well as the deck and stepping stones. It feels so good to have those items off my summer list, and well since summer is almost done I need to put it into high gear. Since we moved in last December I have not fully unpacked and organized everything, and with the stupid accident knocking me off my path of things to do this summer I'm very determined to get a much as I can done. Back to today. I got up with the boys and we played for a little bit, feed them (Carter has not had much of an appetite today, weird) put Mason down for his morning nap. Carter and I laid in my bed and read a bunch of Dr. Seuss books. Then we got ready for church and went just the three of us. Carter did great in his class, it was his first day in three year old class.  Last time we went to church they combined the 3, 4 and 5 year olds, he had a cousin in there so it was not a big deal. But new kids and room he wasn't sure about it, I had to help him out for a minute and then he was good. And very happy to report that he didn't bite, or hit. I think we might have got through the rough phase of that. Mason and I went to the nursing mothers room since we couldn't find a spot unless we climbed in over peps but it was nice cuz I could still watch and listen while he played on the floor. He is so ready to crawl, any second now. We came home and had lunch then down for naps, all three of us. Very nice. Later we went to my dads for dinner after hubs got home. It was fun, we roasted kabassa over my dads newly built finished last night fire pit, with sitting wall. Very cool and my dad is very proud of it. We played cards later and I killed at rummy, normally I'm lucky if I don't come in last and I came in almost 100 points ahead of everyone else. Well, it's late and I need some sleep. Got chiro in the morning some cleaning to do then packing lunched for a play date for Carter. He is very excited big week ahead for him, well all of us.

Beginnig the blogging world

So I'm new to the blogging world. I thought it would be fun to start one because I like facebook but you can never say too much on there. And somethimes I feel like posting more the 420 words. Being a stay at home mom; other then being a cheer coach for fall and winter high school sport seasons, I keep my household running, keep the boys happy and busy, and loving my husband is my life. I love it and wouldn't trade it for anything else. We bought our house last year and I'm still working on getting everything unpacked adn organized, as well as painted. I love crafting when I have time and taking trips with my family, mostly to Bellingham to see my brother Matt and his wife Jessica and there boys. In fact we were there for Labor day weekend and upon our return, I started out sick and now my hubs is. My boys are growing so fast. My oldest boy, Carter, started co-op preschool this week, this is his second year of preschool but this year is not a mommy and me class, it's a drop off. It seems to be harder on me then him. My baby, Mason, in just the last couple days became a pro at pulling up to his knees and rocky back and forth. Rethinkning it, maybe I don't want to teach him to crawl and walk yet, I want him to stay a baby. Well, Mason says it's nap time so I have to go. I hope you enjoy my blogs, and I promise to try to not keep them as  boaring as this one.